I would just like to say that analyzing Schubert’s Erlkonig (a piece of German lieder) is probably akin to eating glass and drinking acid. But I digress.
My day has been pretty good. I passed my final test in my class piano proficiency, so I don’t have to go to that class for the remainder of the semester. I now get to sleep in till 11:30 every Tuesday and Thursday morning. Yay! :) I didn’t have Undergrad Seminar today either, so I got to go home for lunch. I had to go all the way back to campus for my 3:40 class, which is Chamber Singers, but that’s okay. Now here I am, attempting to do music theory homework that I never understood during class. Oh, the joys of being a music major.
With Thanksgiving on the rise, it is appropriate to discuss the many things in my life that I am thankful for. God has been blessing me the past few weeks or so in ways I could never even imagine. I never realized how good I have it with my family and friends until they were all there for me with the whole thing where I found out an ex-friend of mine had raped his previous girlfriend. My friends were so supportive and patient with me. I made stupid decisions like continuing to talk to this person until it was imperative to my personal safety that I walk away. Nobody once said “I told you so,” which I am quite thankful for. That was the last thing I needed to hear. And that decision to get that guy out of my life was one of the healthiest I’ve ever made in my life. Knowing you just did something incredibly wonderful for yourself gives you a certain amount of happiness and relief that can be gotten from nothing else. And the moment I walked away from that incredible source of evil, I bounced right back to God. I am able to hear Him so much better now, and I am truly trying to get back to the point I was at before I met Sean. I enjoy going to church again… no longer do I have the desire to sleep in on Sunday mornings. It’s nice going to place where the whole gathering of people truly love and care for you. 
I feel loved by so many people, and that’s all thanks to God. I have a good life with good people in it, and I am prepared to love as freely as my friends and family do. So here’s to the best Thanksgiving I’ve ever had. Praise be to God! =)
Several thoughts have occurred to me since my last blog. First, I would like to discuss the ever-interesting “how you know when a guy likes you.” Let me tell you that the following things mean NOTHING in real life:
- When he texts you every day just to ask “What’s up?”
- When he tells you all his secrets
- When he teases you constantly
- When he gives you a play-by-play of his entire vaction via text message
You heard me right, girls. That shit means NOTHING! Your best bet is to just ask, “Do you like me?” I swear, that is the only way you will EVER know for sure, so leave behind the delusion that guys give hints. They don’t. That only happens in Seventeen magazine and movies. So get with reality and just ask. It’s hard as hell, but that’s the only way to do it.
So, another thought that occurred to me… when you dishonor your body, you dishonor God. Why do I say this? For a number of reasons, really. First off, God lives inside of you. He is EVERYWHERE you are. He exists with you and apart from you at the same time. Secondly, God gave you this amazing body with the ability to do wonderful things (just look at DNA… how beautiful is that?!). He expects you to treat it well and put good things on and inside of it. When you put things like drugs and alcohol in your body, you only hurt it. So in a way, you also hurt God by insulting His hard work and masterpiece that is your body. You are not alive so that you can destroy your brain cells or your liver. You are not alive so that you can eat greasy, processed foods instead of good, healthy foods. You are alive so that you can interact with others, help others, and get help FROM others. You are alive to live a good life and be with others, in harmony with God.
I would like to stress the fact that that was not meant to piss anyone off. Yes, I was writing from a Christian view; but this is my blog, the blog of a Christian girl. But if you think about it, isn’t treating your body well a good philosophy, regardless of your belief system? I think that the main point is that you respect what you’re walking around in, no matter who or what you do it for. So in conclusion, you only get one body (unless you believe in reincarnation), so treat it well. Live well and the good things you do will come back to you. =)
In my child & family studies class today, we talked about how the baby boomer generation is so much larger than mine. The professor told us that we would be the ones supporting their social security, medicare, and other government programs that they will be relying on. She also said that the BB’s started turning sixty either this year or last year. And there are a lot more who haven’t turned 60 but they will really soon! The mood of the class became rather Orwellian, as she introduced the possibility of the government systematically euthanizing that generation in the coming years to free up resources. I personally do not agree with this at all (unless they WANT to be euthanized, but I doubt they do..LOL); but I can see the logic in it. It’s a cold and cruel logic, but it is logic nonetheless. If only Orwell had thought to include this in 1984, eh? Maybe someone should write 2040. LOL Sadly, that was about the most interesting thing that happened to me all day… that class. Other than that, it was utterly bland.
In more personal news, I am finding now that I need balance. During the past month or so, I have come to this realization. I am a very neurotic person; there isn’t one moment in my daily life that I’m not slightly or majorly worrying over something. Do I consider this a fault? No - it’s just part of my personality. But I wish I were able to have a little piece of calm. Whether or not I find that serenity in a friend or something more, doesn’t matter really. But I feel like God is going to give me balance someday soon. My life is changing; and I really think it is changing for the better, in spite of all that is going on in my life. (If you have access to my WordPress blog, then you will know exactly what’s going on in my life once I post there after this.) But I feel like something is about to happen, and I am just waiting for it - even though I have no clue as to what it is. God is the ultimate miracle-worker, and He has something in store for me. 
Speaking of God and other such matters, whoever decided that everything was always black and white? I don’t see how anyone could view the world as anything but a grey area, morally speaking. I mean, sure there’s a difference between right and wrong; but sometimes the two are different for everyone. Sometimes, what was the right thing to do a month ago is the completely WRONG thing to do now. And sometimes we don’t all fit into the world. Everyone is the odd one out at some point. It’s all a grey area, and that’s why we need God to help us navigate it. God created us all different, with unique ways of needing the same things. The only thing that is outside of the grey area is God Himself - that’s why He can help us get through it. =)
